2:16 AM
Chemistry exam at 8 AM later and not like I have done my revision. I am not even close to done. I grow less and less interest in Chemistry at this moment. Prolly because of this subject rumored to be the toughest subject in MUFY, I am absolutely intimidated. My laziness, procrastination and that doubt in myself really holds me back. Anyway I'm not here to talk about this.
Things have changed, seems a little but feels a lot actually. I finally took that step after such a long time. I consider it a break for myself so that I can focus on my priorities. Initially I had no reason for taking this break but eventually I realised, oh, this long gap of silence has given me, if not you a wake-up call about what I am seriously feeling. Feelings fade and that's always true. Right now, I don't know what I am feeling and it's not me alone to decide. I am confused but I'm just gonna let it be, because I know this is the best.
Finals around the corner and not gonna talk about the stress part. I'm actually excited about sem break and how many things I can do and how many goals I can achieve. So much in my wishlist and I'm gonna fucking do it. And seriously I have to stop studying for exams so last minute. But that's what makes me, ME. Last minute is my motivation, so deep but wtf.
Despite having exams this week, I wish Seapark all the best for the KPI challenge. Not sure if I had contributed anything, but I tried my very best and did my part already. After all its just a BBQ party and honestly I don't really feel like it, but that feeling of accomplishment should not be mistaken as winning. It surely feels good because you know your efforts paid off. I'm pretty sure only a handful actually contributed to where our lab stands now, but we are a team, its for everyone so yeah! Keep pushing guys, just tell yourself, we have come so far to where we are now, it would be a waste if our stores beat us just like that. Pray for you guys, fighting!
I'm broke as fuck but so much I wanna spend on. I want my own pair of birkenstock (Not for showing off but its really comfy and useful for me) and I wanna dye my hair at a saloon so badly but I know clearly it's expensive and waste of money. I need work harder than this. Lets find a new job...hahaha. Tried uniqlo but they didn't like my face, i guess. But they pay fucking well sial.. haih,
Ciaos for now, all the best for my chemistry, confirm gg lah. I'm more excited for advanced mathematics exam HAHAHAHAH surprisingly.
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