Am I living this life the right way?

2:16 AM
Chemistry exam at 8 AM later and not like I have done my revision. I am not even close to done. I grow less and less interest in Chemistry at this moment. Prolly because of this subject rumored to be the toughest subject in MUFY, I am absolutely intimidated. My laziness, procrastination and that doubt in myself really holds me back. Anyway I'm not here to talk about this.

Things have changed, seems a little but feels a lot actually. I finally took that step after such a long time. I consider it a break for myself so that I can focus on my priorities. Initially I had no reason for taking this break but eventually I realised, oh, this long gap of silence has given me, if not you a wake-up call about what I am seriously feeling. Feelings fade and that's always true. Right now, I don't know what I am feeling and it's not me alone to decide. I am confused but I'm just gonna let it be, because I know this is the best.

Finals around the corner and not gonna talk about the stress part. I'm actually excited about sem break and how many things I can do and how many goals I can achieve. So much in my wishlist and I'm gonna fucking do it. And seriously I have to stop studying for exams so last minute. But that's what makes me, ME. Last minute is my motivation, so deep but wtf.

Despite having exams this week, I wish Seapark all the best for the KPI challenge. Not sure if I had contributed anything, but I tried my very best and did my part already. After all its just a BBQ party and honestly I don't really feel like it, but that feeling of accomplishment should not be mistaken as winning. It surely feels good because you know your efforts paid off. I'm pretty sure only a handful actually contributed to where our lab stands now, but we are a team, its for everyone so yeah! Keep pushing guys, just tell yourself, we have come so far to where we are now, it would be a waste if our stores beat us just like that. Pray for you guys, fighting!

I'm broke as fuck but so much I wanna spend on. I want my own pair of birkenstock (Not for showing off but its really comfy and useful for me) and I wanna dye my hair at a saloon so badly but I know clearly it's expensive and waste of money. I need work harder than this. Lets find a new job...hahaha. Tried uniqlo but they didn't like my face, i guess. But they pay fucking well sial.. haih,

Ciaos for now, all the best for my chemistry, confirm gg lah. I'm more excited for advanced mathematics exam HAHAHAHAH surprisingly.

Apology

Bad day today at work. Sorry to this customer, greatest apologies. I know saying sorry here or anywhere will make no difference. I was cashiering and I missed out his order of changing beef patty to chicken. A beef burger was served and I'm pretty sure he can't take beef due to religion beliefs. 

What I have with me and I wanna clarify is that I'm sorry maybe I went too fast. It was a pretty long order and I just assumed things were right. After shift I was told that after this customer had a bite of the burger he turned from the all-excited look to that freaked out look. His bunch of friends were shocked at the same time and this guy went squatting like he couldn't believe what he just ate. A new burger was fired and a refund was made as well. Due to huge crowds rushing in constantly, I couldn't leave my station and go to him to apologies face-to-face. I wanted too, just no time. I made sure the waiters handling this case informs him that it was my fault while cashiering. Not the kitchen nor anyone else. I was the one who took the order I'm the main cause of this. Sorry man. 

Not  just that I was also told that he was pretty pissed, I think he's fucking pissed just trying to hold it back. When the refund was made, his friends were insisting him to reject it. Well that shows how irritated and mad they were, Really sincerely wanna apologies on this. Not much of a big deal when this was brought up to the managers, but I personally think thats something not to be neglected.. This is really something man, some serious shit. I wish I could have a delete or backspace button for this. What's done is done. I hope he's perfectly fine now. 

I always wish I could make customer's day, and yeah I just did, in a bad way. I'm pretty sure he will remember this bad dining experience at this place, and probably won't come back anymore. Sorry T.T